i'm being selfish sometime.. it doesnt mean that i dont want to understand others.. i just cant describe what i mean, when others are already oppose my explanation.
idk why i got angry easily these days. maybe bcs of the stress feeling? i got a bunch of assignments to do and also some problems to solve. *sigh*
maybe i really am not good at working with team. but i cant live alone. i have to have a team to work with.. :S


HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone.
tidak terasa uda memasuki tahun 2012... wow
keknya baru kemarin aja masuk tahun 2011. keknya baru kemarin aja kibum join twitter.. sekarang uda mau 1 tahun dia join twitter. senangnyaaaaaaa 8)


yea, i'm not as smart as my mother, so she could get scholarship
yea, i'm not as creative as my father, so he could earn money by himself while attending college..
then.... should i experience it too?
i mean... yea.... idk i feel so unfair.

still not sure with my 6th semester life...
will i continue it or not.. :( since parents said that at 6th Semester i have to pay my own college fee with my own money.
it means that i have to WORK.
and i'm not sure if i can get a job at 5th sem.
since 5th sem is TOO busy with assignments.. and i dont want to stress myself with some disturbing thought.

that's why..i always want to meet friends, just to keep my mood and my chin up.
i thought parents are just kidding, but i think they're serious.. :(
i dunno what to do.

beside, there are so many stuffs that i really want to have..
and some things that i really wanna do.. :(
such as, i want to save some money for SS4, or buying HD, or buying phone...
lucky ppl who able to save money for their idols.
sincerely, i envy with them.
i'll start to earn money from now.. but still not sure with the amount ..

plus..
inner pressure from parents about future. arrrr
actually until now i still feel so lost. when i really need them to give some advice about what i like and what i can do in future...
they keep forcing me to do their wish...
it doesnt mean that i dont want to fulfill my parents wish, but..
i'm turning into adult already, and i want to choose my own path, BUT i need some support from parents.. ;-;
i need some advice which is able to help me reach my own future... ;-;
(and why winamp plays the sad song from HOT.. ;-; /cryingforever)

Label: diary